Sunday, September 24, 2006

Well-behaved women seldom make history

So I saw this quote and it struck a chord with me. I used to think that because I became a wife & mother that I had to become this perfect, goody goody person who wasn't allowed to make a mistake,ask for help, or do anything that wasn't proper "mom behavior". I have since realized(thanks A.) that you can have it all. What I mean by that is I can still be me (the fun, wild, loud, crazy girl ). I was so used to repressing this part of me that I became unsure of myself and was not in a happy place. Thanks to some soul searching, long talks w/ A, and a fabulous girl trip to Costa Rica :) I am happy to announce that yes people that girl is back! And boy did I ever miss her! I realized that I don't have to lock that part of me away, it would be a terrible shame if my kids never got to know the real me. I mean she's the one you all fell in love w/ anyway. I am much happier now and feeling more self-assured than ever. Anyways, what's the point of being good if you're not having any fun?

Sunday, September 03, 2006

you have an unyielding moral compass and i just wanted to tell you how much i admire you for that.

K- thank you for always being my eternal cheerleader. whenever i am sad or upset just talking to you and hearing you tell me everything will be ok somehow helps. you are ever the eternal optimist. no matter how many times you get let down, stomped on , or get hurt yourself, you are always right back up on your feet offering words of encouragement for others. your unfailing belief in love inspires me.

so on the eve of us all being 30, i just want to tell you two that i love you and i can't wait to see what the next 20 years holds for us.
to have someone who knows you inside out, who can tell everything about you just by a look, or a word spoken. to be able to look at each other and break out into terrible fits of laughter without saying a word,but still knowing exactly what the other is thinking. i look to each of these girls with a sense of awe. i have had the honor of watching them grow from girls into the beautiful,talented women they are today and i feel grateful everyday for that. we are all three distinct individuals but i think that is the main reason why we work so well together. we each have something to offer the others, to help them along in their journey of life. i know i'm becoming very long winded here but i just can't explain in words how much they mean to me ( i'm going to guess that you two know what i'm trying to say) so in honor of our 30th birthday's and our 19 years of friendship i just wanted to take a moment to recognize you two for being the constant in my life. we have been there for each other through all the good and all the bad.

A- thanks for always being my voice of reason. i want to tell you how much i admire you. your strength and courage and your unwillingness to back down impress me more than i can say.

the trio

A, K, and I have been best friends since we were 11 years old. now as we embark on our 30th birthdays (actually i just had mine) i wanted to take a minute(or hour) to reflect back on our friendship. i still remember the first time we met, clear as day,like it was yesterday. i met A first. i remember walking into english class and scanning the room for a friendly face( i was new to the school and did not have any friends yet) i thought she looked nice and pretty and i decided to take a chance and sit next to her. little did i know how that seemingly small decision would shape my life. we instantly hit it off and were pretty much inseperable from then on. A had met K that year at her church and they were best friends, so naturally she wanted us to meet so we could all be one happy family. well unfortunately that first meeting was horrible and to make a long story short ( those who know us already know this story and are tired of it :P ) we eventually became friends. from then on we were a trio, surviving adolescence, first boyfriends, kisses, disappointments,and triumphs. this brings me to my point here, i cannot imagine my life without these two ladies. i don't think most people understand our bond. we are more than friends we are sisters,we are family. can you imagine sharing every secret, every tear ,every first ,every everything with someone from the time you were 11 and still having those people in your life.